Do we ever really outgrow the urge to pick something based on first impressions?
We mature. We learn to look more deeply. But if we’re honest, we’ll probably
admit that we’re drawn first to the “pretty” one, right?
I’ve done that many times throughout life… but it’s not really as superficial as it
sounds… or, maybe I’m just kidding myself.
Over the years I’ve laughingly said,
“Why do anything the easy way when I can make it more complicated?”
(and I’m fairly accomplished at doing just that)
I’m just SO willing to go the extra mile or take the extra long step cuz
I like the way it looks or sounds… and in the end I wanna pull my hair out from
all the frustration I caused myself. Most recently I’ve become VERY aware
of my problem.
We’re entering our 8th year and I’ll have 4 children that are school-aged
this year. I should totally be in a groove, right? WRONG!
In our 2nd year of this process we discovered curriculum that worked well.
But, alas… it was boring looking. Too many black & white pictures, too many
scripture verses were in the King James version, etc. Never mind that it was
easy to follow, all-inclusive and literally taught me how to keep track of grades.
(I hope you’re reading this paragraph with a great deal of scarcasm in your
voice!) So, I switched. Experimented. Choose something that was bright,
had gorgeous colored pictures and more modern Bible versions. Nevermind
the fact that each subject had 5 to 11 books per SUBJECT! UGH!!!!! WHAT?
What a struggle! I’ve wanted to scream a zillion times… instead I just cried
and got cranky! My kids felt the same way, too… MANY TIMES! Grrr!
All this trouble… just so my kids can have colored pictures in their books?
Am I insane? (OK, it was more than nice pictures that drew me, but that’s
the basic idea. )
It all seems like a great idea.
Seems worth it. Seems like the added work & time won’t be so bad!
But… (here’s the clincher): If God is not directing us to do something
then our “added effort” and colored pictures are gunna make us want to pull
out our hair! And we’ll start to resent the time & joy it’s stealing away from
I’m treading carefully & prayerfully and asking Jesus to direct my plans
and curriculum choices…
I’m refusing to be sucked into what seems so grand & bright…
I’ll just be obedient.
He knows what’s best for my kids & what they can handle…
and I’m already taking deeper breathes.
(hmm, since I’m relaxing now, maybe I’ll have more time to
take some good pictures of my kids! )