Timid is Tempting

 

If you’ve been around me at all, you know that I’m not shy.. or timid… or

even remotely quiet. Nope. Not at all.  Usually I can talk to anyone and

find great pleasure in getting a “don’t-talk-to-me” kinda person to start

talking… and extra points if I can get them to smile.

(Like the somewhat-cranky ol farmer at Eastern Market who sells the yummiest

sweet corn… it’s taken me two years, but this past Saturday I got him

to smirk slightly and then kindly wish me “nice weekend!”  YES!)

But circumstances in life can smack us in the face and knock the confidence

right out from under us. It’s then that I can sometimes be tempted to just

quiet down & be more timid. But  really, those are the moments when I must

face this question:

Did my confidence come from myself?  or

Does my confidence come from my relationship with Jesus?


Sometimes it’s not the earth shattering things in life that mess with us, but

rather the smaller things that wanna play with our heads.  I’m walking

through a few of those situations, and  I’ve certainly winced in moments of temptation…

moments where I wanted to pull away,

stop being friendly & just close up my heart,

be overly cautious (aka fearful),

be too calculated about friendships & discipleship,

let my courage melt a little  (aka be timid)

think about myself,

second guess the “outgoing-ness” that makes me vulnerable,

be what I am NOT created to be simply because it feels safer.

It’s not safer. It’s horrible to be something/someone that God did NOT make

me to be simply because I’m afraid. Giving into fear means I’m

not trusting Jesus.

So…

*When our car is stolen out of our driveway & a check stolen from our front porch,

I will not ponder all the “what if’s.” I will remind myself of God’s calling, protection

& purpose for our lives.

* When dear friends move away, I will not shut my heart to current & new friends

because of the “fear of losing another friend.” (If I do shut out people then I’ve

already lost them)

*If my scale says something that makes me wanna cry, I will continue to do

my best, smile & love people. Self-consciousness only makes me ugly.

I will NOT cave into to any of these timid thoughts. They quickly take over and

gain power over me. It says that so plainly is 2 Peter 2:19  (The Voice)

—— “Whatever you give in to will soon become your master.”

Instead, I will give into the overwhelming, undeserved love & acceptance

of Jesus Christ!  I let go of fears & the damaging thoughts that go with them.

Jesus is my BEST friend. I will think about Him, read His Words, listen to Him,

talk to Him & give into Him. He’s my Master.

7 thoughts on “Timid is Tempting

  1. “* When dear friends move away, I will not shut my heart to current & new friends

    because of the “fear of losing another friend.” (If I do shut out people then I’ve

    already lost them)”

    This is something I have had to constantly fight! I think its one of the things that comes with church planters/pioneers/missionaries, I use the excuse that I don’t have the energy to make new friends, especially if I am moving on or they are moving on. I wonder whats the point in investing?
    But its remembering that God puts people in your lives for purpose, and its learning to ask questions like – What can I learn from this friendship? What can I teach them? – It is hard having to say goodbye to people, but is a lot easier when you know that you have given and learnt all you can!

    Thanks for sharing Netta!
    Love you lots!!

  2. Such a great message to hear. We get our confidence from Christ, not ourselves & what we’ve done or what we look like. What an important reminder. Thanks and I love your “outgoing-ness” and am inspired by it each time I see you!

  3. thanks for the awesome message…i can totally relate….we have very similar personalities and it can be hard sometimes…your message hit home with me!!!
    good preaching netta!!!

  4. “Nothing kills vision faster than irrational anxieties. Refuse 2 freeze up & call your fears what they are: LIES! There’s work 2 be done; GO!” – my quote on twitter today …

    xox,
    me

  5. WOW! I feel like this all the time.

    Sometimes I wonder ‘what is the point of serving? never seems to matter anyway’ I often feel used up, instead of used by God. How do I know that the seeds won’t get burned up instead of watered.
    Friends do move away, and it’s hard.

    I’m not usually timid or shy but usually cautious.

    This really did happen to me yesterday… Phyllis went to see a band that her friends play in, and I know one of the boys, he was in our youth ministry. i seriously thought the kid didn’t like me, I mean, he hugged me but I thought because of obligation. Yesterday he told Phyllis “i miss your mom”. It made me want to cry. Maybe those kids really do know I love them, and maybe they do miss me! Maybe I am making a difference, many made a difference in my life when I was younger even if it was just one time of helping me pick the book for RIF (Reading is FUNdamental) held at my school.

    I just always try to put on a smile, keep my heart open, hug a lot, read my bible, think of those who made a difference in my life and strive to be one of those people. Now I’m crying at my desk, remembering that God made me for such a time as this! Gotta go love someone!

    Thanks Netta for always inspiring me, I almost read this last night, but I think it was meant for me to save for today (I really needed it)

    loveyou! hugs!!

  6. MAN! I should have stayed the extra ten minutes at my desk yesterday and read this. We had a company cook out in the parking lot behind our building… I spoke to my sister… and my aunt… and ONE other person VERY briefly.

    YUCK!!!!

    Thanks for the conviction and the encouragement!

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